“UNTITLED”

Somewhere along the road to finding ourselves

We lost ourself…

And generations later it seems that the search is far from over

We went from fighting for freedom of speech to abusing the right to speak

Went from being chained and beat

to our former slave owners asking for our kind to have peace

Those in their graves ask

will it be safe enough for their descendants to walk the streets without turning around scared to see who’s behind?

They say we are the generation of the blind

I say we choose to close our eyes

Because we live in a generation where no one tries

No one cares about what hits the “New York Times”

Only hits that matters is the hits

That discuss the size of your fAvorite rappers glock

How many females he took down,

And how many shots he let’s off when he comes through the block

Yet the moment someone we know is a victim of what we’ve become so accustom to

We’re in the streets marching and talking like we’re all brand new

Speaking of a revolution that won’t be televised, As tears runs down our eyes………………

But just as the tears disappears so does our passion

And we find ourselves right back to being comfortable again

Free will?

I question If we WILL ever FREE ourselves

I wonder if we will ever realize that we will always be judged by our cover like a book

Because the content inside is yet to be written …..

So I reiterate my opening statement,

Somewhere along the road to finding ourselves

We lost ourself…

4 months ago  /  3 notes

Brown Eyes

Behind those brown eyes,

Do you see the boy inside the man trying to come out?

The fears, the pain, the confusion……the doubt

The frustration he gets everyday as he tries to lead a life that’s right.

The blood, the sweat put into a 9 to 5 that may NEVER get him out the hood,

So he remains steady because leaving would cause him more pain than good

It’s that hunger that wakes him up every day to put on that worn out suit and tie

But you don’t know his hustle all you know is “he’s that nigga that loves to get high”

Do you see his struggle or question what he does to get by?

Or do you just see the sagging pants and fitted cap?

Behind those brown eyes,

Do you see the anger he fights to control from being with a woman who causes his life to be unstable?

Can you tell how many times he’s tried to leave but cause of love he’s unable?

They have a little boy together and for little man to her, he remains faithful

Promises that at all cost he’ll do anything to make it work

Grew up in a fatherless household so to his son, he won’t pass down the hurt

Made a vow to his mother before she passed away that he’ll grow up as a good man,      

But he’s with a woman who’s selfish and simply doesn’t understand

She doesn’t care for him, only cares about him paying whenever the rents due

Taking care of the kid, buying her shoes, clothes and paying her cell phone too

SEE like many females, he too

Suffers from being with someone who whispers in his ears at night “I…. LOVE ……YOU”

Then turns around, act brand new,  flip the script because she knows he won’t mistreat her

Neglect him, because she’s still scorned from her ex who used to beat her

But he deals with it…….

And nobody knows it but them; they don’t see what he knows

They only see how he reacts when she causes a show

Starts arguments and fights in public

So that when he replies, he gets labeled “Aint shit”

Gets called no good, because when she calls him a dog, he calls her a bitch…

But …………what else is a female dog in a relationship?

Do you see the sagging jeans and fitted cap?

Or behind those brown eyes

Do you see the struggle,

the pain ………………..inside the man

7 months ago  /  1 note

Worth of life

I know sometimes it’s hard for you to tell the world why you’re important

Especially when mommy always reminded you that you were only worth an abortion………………….

That her & her one night stand could not afford ,so 9 months later there you were.

Placed in a world full of envy and greed Where the only thing that could’ve protected you, was love

But unfortunately for you, that’s not what your household was made of

See you were constantly told that you were conceived on the foundations that “things just happen ”.

And whether it was false or true, the biggest mistake was not you

For you are worth….. much more than what your parents lacked in.

No matter how many countless times you searched for a hug but could not find it

Or how many times you tucked yourself in bed because mommy was on her bullshit

But you never understood that,

you could only grasp the fact that what you thought were FACTS , came from the mouths of individuals that could care less…. LETS FACE it

but like so many other faces, you became immune to listening to the ” I hate you” on a daily basis

and instead of breaking free from that cycle like a dummy you embraced it

Chose to run the streets, picked up empty lovers to confine into your bed sheets just so that you could have what you thought was making “beautiful music”

 … only to discover it was one of your many used up beats

so scared to be scarred you can’t even see how many wounds you’ve left open

so stuck in your misery that you aint realize that the initial pain only lasted for a moment

walking in the streets with your head hung low,

constantly hurting yourself never paying attention that people hit themselves with the hardest blow

So many things you simply didn’t care to know cause life was irrelevant to you until NOW,

years later, HERE you are with a decision of your own

contemplating on the abortion that your parents could not afford or giving this child the comfort of having what you never had …. a HOME

315 dollars ain’t worth your soul,

315 DOLLARS aint worth ya soul ,

315 dollars aint worth ya soul,

Common said it best …YES

but instead of the brighter path you chose to be like the rest

said you wouldnt know how to love a child until you learn how to love a man……

but Im still confused with your logic because man don’t love you back

of course unless its your back your laying on…..

so misguided cause here you are thinking that stroking means love …

and in your head that is correct because for the first time in the midst of all these men resting in between your thighs

one of them told you that he loved you,

& somewhere in the midst of him humping and grabbing his clothes to say goodbye you thought that those words were true

running up to me , telling me how much hes means to you………

NO….. I’m sure you barely know his real name, for him, I’m sure its the same

BUT you tell me he makes you feel beautiful and I’m sure that’s only when his hands are in the comfort of your skirt….

and I’m finding myself lost for words like a baby at birth

because i know everything that im saying means nothing to your ears until you recognize how much your worth

10 months ago  /  0 notes

LETTER TO L0VE

Dear Future husband,

 I’m in no rush to meet you

 cause I believe, Patience is truly a virtue

 And I know if God has created someone especially for me

That waiting for what’s in store for us , is the best way to be

Although we’ve never met, I can already see why ill fall madly in love

For after all I’ll go through , you’ll persuade me to believe that romance can be as beautiful the stars above

I’m a very difficult woman, of course when you find me , you’ll eventually figure this out

But yet with all my flaws, you’ll still try and see what being my “man” is all about

So In advance I’d like to thank you…..

Thank you for taking the time to open up my eyes and remove all the doubts I have in trusting someone

For all the gloomy rainy days ill have but with one kiss suddenly feel like I see the rising of the sun

Thank you for Seeing me at my worst, and helping me reach my best

For the many days I may feel insecure but reassure me that I Am the rhythm to the heart beat in your chest

And I know things wont be all smiles, I know things with us wont be perfect

But thank you, for never making me feel like being with you isn’t worth it

For trying to avoid each fight I may start until you eventually reply and burst out the door,

Grab your car keys, but never make it past the driveway because you’d know leaving would hurt me more

Thank you for every “I love you” in all the languages your frequently exploring…….

For the trail of rose pedals sporadically I’d follow till catching you burn breakfast in the morning

For The many times I come home from my long day, and your hands are waiting to embrace my shoulders

For always opening your arms for me to snuggle up under when the world feels a lil colder

For making me feel like every kiss is for the first time

and for being the first and the last person that runs throught my mind

I thank you, for having so many options in other girls,but decided that it was me, you wanted to make feel as the only one in this world

Thank you for being a pure example, that miracles can happen,

for trusting and loving me unconditionally,

But most importantly, for possessing all the things my past mistakes lacked in

So till the day we meet……………

 I’ll secretly fantasize about the man whom i’ll share my life

Yours truly,

YOUR FUTURE WIFE

10 months ago  /  0 notes

A L0VE like mine <3

I’d die over and over to be reborn just to love you
because being with someone else aint worth living at all
and I’d travel around the world for centuries,
sail across these many seas,
if I’d discover loving you and you’d discover me.
I’d go to war and back again because to me your worth fighting for
and I’d freeze each minute of every moment that you are gone 
just to prove that my time is only invested in you.
You want to know how deep my love runs for you,
it’s so deep
too deep that I’m drowning in my love for you
and even if I could, I’d never ask to be rescued.
After you I could probably fall in love again
only if falling in love meant I’d have to pretend
and I’d rather be blind than to see my self without you
remove my lips if I had too
because my kisses belong only to you
and if I could I’d clone myself multiple times if that was a way of giving you the best of me
Be like the forecast, make it rain, so that I could constantly shower you with my love.
and if we were to die,
we’d be forced to be buried next to each other because my soul can’t rest without you be my side.
I’D take a bullet for you
nah forget that
I’d get crucified for you, only to be resurrected on the next day
because nothing in this world
I said nothing in this world can stand in my way
when it comes to me 
loving you
cause if you didn’t know ,we were meant to be together
but I can’t
I CAN only give you what you see
ME
and the only powers I truly pocess 
is my ability
to simply
love you, so tell me ,is a love like mine good enough?

11 months ago  /  Notes